Walking away

•March 30, 2009 • 1 Comment

“I love the sound of you walking away…”

I don’t like being vexed by my ex.
I felt horrible when I left him, even though I knew it was the best thing for both of us. I didn’t like hurting another person; I’ve been hurt soooo many times that I never wanted to be the one who did the hurting but. I had to.
But now I feel that he has pushed me to the point that I just want to be left alone, to not see him or talk to him at all. Whatever softness I felt is gone. Has been vexed out of me.
Sometimes its best just to walk away.

2″

•March 29, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I’ve taken 2 inches off my measurements!
Hurrah! I’m shrinking!

Two ninjas

•March 28, 2009 • Leave a Comment

two ninjas

Life is expensive

•March 27, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I saw the credit counselor yesterday and am now on a new plan to get rid of my credit card debt. Hurrah!
Now it’ll only take 2.5 years to pay everything off at waaay lower interest rates and a lower monthly payment than what I’m currently making. It’s going to be a huge help and I’m greatly relieved.

Of course, I only have about $9 in my account right now until the 1st but. You know how it is. Life is expensive. I’ve got to start ferreting money aside for college in the fall/spring and for car repairs. Stella needs transmission flushing and such.

I was planning to see The Fantasticks tonight but my bank account isn’t gonna cut the cake. I’ll see it later in the run. Next week I also have to see Tales From Ovid at Fresno State. I have friends in both productions that I look forward to seeing perform.

I’m also looking forward to the time when I can get back to performing myself. But that’s another entry for another time…

Spanish bees

•March 26, 2009 • 1 Comment

I need Antonio Banderas. My allergies are unpleasant this season! My sneezing has actually startled Daisy on a few occasions. Sad.

I’m trying to get some things accomplished:
◊ Tomorrow I go see the credit counselor to get the finances in order.
◊ I’m trying to work out; have more pounds to lose.
◊ Also trying to eat better. Having greater success here than the exercise.
◊ Will begin work on a new monologue for my return to the stage (hopefully) this fall.
◊ Am planning a return to school in the fall as well.
◊ I need new headshots to show my new hair.
◊ I’m trying not to let Joel vex me. I’ve tried to be nice and gentle but now I’ve reached the point where cruel-to-be-kind is in order. Plus, I don’t need to be stalked right now.
◊ Finally, I’m paying attention to what my body is telling me, particularly my stomach. It needs special love while it’s healing and I have to help it’s recovery, even when the people and events around me do their best to hinder it.

Ugh! My nose itches! My eyes itch and are gooey-ish! Sneeze! The Benadryl makes me sleeeeeepy and Make Me a Supermodel is on tonight. I love watching the models act up; they make acting shenanigans look almost civil!

The Returning

•March 24, 2009 • 1 Comment

Can’t keep a good woman down.